INTRO
IMPATIENS CAPENSIS
LITTLE RIVER
GROWING UP, TWO AMERICAS
THE SCRAPER
THE ODYSSEY OF GLOOMY GUS
A TRUE DOCTOR
WAITING ON LARAMIE CREEK
DEATH OF WILBUR
THE ADVANTAGE OF INTELLIGENCE
TO BETTY, 1982
TED
BY WINNEBAGO'S SHORE
THE HUMAN CONDITION IS NOT
DREAM OF CHARLES DE LANGLADE
ANNIVERSARY 1984
THE LESSON
FROM THE TALE OF PETER MINK
MUSIC AT THE JACKSON
ALONG 693
SNAPSHOT
OLD MAN TO HIMSELF
OLD RIDER
TREES OF NEW JERSEY
CALLING OWLS
OLD DOMINION
HILLS
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN
WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN
TO OUR SONS, 1982
CHICAGO AND NORTHWESTERN
BEYOND NORTH MOUNTAIN
AFTER YOU LANGLADE
MY SHIP
MAKE REVOLUTION
THE BRANDY LINE (ABOUT A FAVORITE GOAT)
YOU CALL ME FOLLY MILLS
MEMORY
SPRING PEEPERS
©Poems of R.F.Mueller- Other Times, Other Thoughts

THE ABORTION PALACE
(A TRUE EXPERIENCE IN THE 1930s!)
R.F. Mueller


Bound to verify the unspeakable
we marched through woods and swamp
toward the deserted house we'd heard about
in low-voiced adult talk.

Not that we loved babies. In those
fat belly days those already devalued heavenly gifts
were gluts not as exciting as kittens or frogs.
But this bright autumn Saturday we wanted
to find out if the rumors were true.

And I still remember that old house,
gray shingled through the trees with
dank rooms of stained wallpaper and battered baseboards.
The closets and attic contained nothing
but fillers for our imaginations.
But outside in the overgrown yard a deep dug well
beneath mossy boards
smelled to us like a thousand rotting fetuses.

 

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As I remember, in those days abortion was accepted as a fact of life even by those, like my family, who passed for religious Catholics. There was no sermonizing or ranting about the sanctity of life, perhaps because, lacking deep welfare funding, excess mouths to feed were tied so closely to economic survival.