October 29
i think i will begin
this entry with a link to
one of my favorite
porn sites.
enjoy!
Again my day began a
bit later than i had planned. My discussion for my Taoism class began at
10...i wokle up at 10:20. i think i need to have my head checked...this
always happens to me. i will start out the semester fine...and
eventually, through some unknown thought process, i decide that it's
better to sleep through my life than to experience and learn...perhaps
it;s when i look at how pathetic this world really is. A prime example of
this is the Joe Christ show i went to today. i have known about it for
months...told people i know and people i don't know about it....built it
up. And do you know how many people actually came to this? about 15!!!
How distressing. And of course, as was expected, one of the people
present was Glenn, aka Monster Boy. i'm so nauseated by this shithead
everytime i see him yet...for some reason i know that should the situation
arise, i would hook up with him. Yet, his sheer rudeness and lack of
consideration for any other being other than himself makes me angry...and
sick to my stomach. Anyways, another current nemesis/love interest of
mine might be making an appearance tomorrow night....good 'ol Peter.
Well, now, here's the backgroung scoop on Peter...modified of course. The
short of the long is this....i met him through a friend...we saw each
other about a week later...hooked up. After that we were 'sort of seeing
each other', as he put it, for the next few weeks. Then, he started
feeding me these nauseating, idiotic lines...one in particular about how
much he likes me but that i should 'dump' him. Basically what he was
trying to say then was that i had served my purpose and should then get
out of his life...but to make things easier on him he would prefer it if i
dumped him to save him from guilt. Well, he's a shithead...and i know
it...and i sure hope he knows it. In any case, in order to see this gothy
band Attrition tomorrow night...i'd have to go with Peter...in dependency
upon my best friend, Sheyam. i don't really care if i do have to ride
with the piece of shit...i just wanna go to the show. But, i am pretty
sure Sheyam won't go....i would be surprised if she did. oh well. i'm
used to it...i will tell her about an event like 2 months in advance...and
then she'll decide that night not to go. i'm tired of it....but as long
as it's 'old habit' for her i guess it won't change. *sigh* oh well...i
lover her anyways and because of that i'm sure i will continue to let her
do this. i think i'm fucked in the head...no, the world is fucked in the
eye...socket.