INTRO
IMPATIENS CAPENSIS
LITTLE RIVER
GROWING UP, TWO AMERICAS
THE SCRAPER
THE ODYSSEY OF GLOOMY GUS
A TRUE DOCTOR
WAITING ON LARAMIE CREEK
DEATH OF WILBUR
THE ADVANTAGE OF INTELLIGENCE
TO BETTY, 1982
TED
BY WINNEBAGO'S SHORE
THE HUMAN CONDITION IS NOT
DREAM OF CHARLES DE LANGLADE
ANNIVERSARY 1984
THE LESSON
FROM THE TALE OF PETER MINK
MUSIC AT THE JACKSON
ALONG 693
SNAPSHOT
OLD MAN TO HIMSELF
OLD RIDER
TREES OF NEW JERSEY
CALLING OWLS
OLD DOMINION
HILLS
I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THEN
WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN
TO OUR SONS, 1982
BEYOND NORTH MOUNTAIN
AFTER YOU LANGLADE
MY SHIP
MAKE REVOLUTION
THE BRANDY LINE (ABOUT A FAVORITE GOAT)
THE ABORTION PALACE
YOU CALL ME FOLLY MILLS
MEMORY
SPRING PEEPERS
©Poems of R.F.Mueller- Other Times, Other Thoughts

CHICAGO AND NORTHWESTERN
R.F. Mueller


On that December day of '45 she became part of my life,
Of that vision unbelievably recoiling to
The same wide streets, the wire-fenced fields,
The trees spooling past the 400's northward drive,
The rhythmic clack of steel in oil
Shucking off the foreign days and nights.
My uniform was the opening
To her elegant brunet's fur-coated style,
The introduction to her smile,
There in the gently swaying blue-green plush,
With faintest smoke-of-diesel smell, and beyond
The outward dash of increasingly familiar miles
Toward the station stop
Where, helplessly, I saw her step into my past.

 

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This incident was an example of my faintheartedness around desirable women, faintheartedness and insecurity that resulted from self-perception as an uneducated rube. I had of course gained some bravado from my experience in Europe, but it was inadequate in the old familiar American social setting that rushed back on me in this instance.